Sometimes It's Just Tough...

The biggest question I get from people who figure out I am from Missouri is, "Why do you live up here?"

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And my response is the same thing "Husband's job"...

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Cleaning out some things in the house today I came across a photo...of my wedding day :) May 31, 2003.

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This photo is going to be the photo for the weekend...and to me it is THAT important :)

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Days: 49, 50 & 51: Dad

I revel in how young both of us looked :) But really, how young my dad looks here. And every time I see him when I go home...I realize how old he had gotten. I hate seeing that. I want to not even notice him changing. I want to see him so often, that I never notice it unless I look back on pictures.

We are in that part of our relationship where he is still my dad, but we are more like friends. I love that, and I miss it every, single, day.

I love our conversations...they always start out like this: Dad: Hello? Me: Hey Dad, it's the 3rd Daughter... Dad: Hello Loretta!

My family, I miss all of them so very much. And it's tough.

If you have never lived in a place where you feel you don't "belong" or it is just a stop onto something else...you won't get this. But that is how I feel living here. Nothing against Minnesota...but it isn't ME.

I have found some amazing and lifelong friends here for sure...but I miss so much about home.

There is a peace at home I haven't found up here...the only other place I found this kind of peace was in Arizona...Sedona to be exact...not sure why. But I felt very at peace there.

Home is what you make it, I totally agree with that...but home is also a feeling, a peace, a something that probably none of us will ever understand. But I know Minnesota isn't it for me. It's a stop...I hope to something bigger, better and more home to me. I wish for it to happen sooner than later, but I am sure it will happen, patience right?

I am grateful I still have my dad, to talk on the phone to, to hug when I see him, to tear up when I see him laughing so hard he makes no noise :) His smile, everything about him...I just wish I got to experience it more.

Love you Dad, the 3rd daughter :)